We had to run a timed 3 miles to see what group we would be placed in. I felt pain for that entire 3 miles. I could not run my best, but I did about the best that I could. I hope it was good enough to stay with my group of friends from the marathon training...but I guess if it isn't good enough, I will make new friends :) After running those 3 miles I felt like I had set myself back at least 2 weeks, if not more. I hurt with every step. Damn you plantar fasciitis.
I started thinking about all the things I have done to try to "fix" my heel....it is kind of humorous and sad all at the same time because I am SO NOT IN CHARGE. In no particular order I have done the following:
Went to the doctor (MD), had x-rays, used crutches, prayer, begging prayers, deal making prayers, I sleep in a Strassburg sock every night, I wear a sleeve made by Feetures every single day (I have more than one), shoe inserts, essential oils, salt therapy, water jet therapy, went to see a (new to me) Energy Healer, she did a vibration therapy and a laser therapy on my heel, healing meditations, energy meditations, chakra clearing, legal drugs, lots of alcohol, foot & leg massage, ice water bottles, wooden rollers, plastic spiny ball, ice wraps, heat wraps, salonpas, tape, positive thoughts.....I am sure I am missing a few things but it is enough to say I am not really able to fix this.
That is kind of hard to accept.
God reminded me today of all of the above that I have done and that I can keep on but really I am not in charge. He didn't tell me I should stop the foolishness already, He simply reminded me the He is in charge. Funny thing happened once I acknowledged that....I started walking without feeling every single step in my heel. I am not ready to run yet but I will get there and I just need to relax into it. The timing will be perfect, so I just need to accept it and roll with it....I am so NOT in charge.
