Patience Grasshopper

I am so freakin tired of not being able to run.  To run with ease and not having to think about it or feel pain with every single step.  I have not run at all since December 14 until yesterday.  So basically a month.  That was a deadline I gave myself...like I am really in charge of such things.  The reason I set that deadline is because my speed class started yesterday (1/10/15) with Luke's Locker.

We had to run a timed 3 miles to see what group we would be placed in.  I felt pain for that entire 3 miles.  I could not run my best, but I did about the best that I could.  I hope it was good enough to stay with my group of friends from the marathon training...but I guess if it isn't good enough, I will make new friends :)  After running those 3 miles I felt like I had set myself back at least 2 weeks, if not more.  I hurt with every step.  Damn you plantar fasciitis.

I started thinking about all the things I have done to try to "fix" my heel....it is kind of humorous and sad all at the same time because I am SO NOT IN CHARGE.  In no particular order I have done the following:

Went to the doctor (MD), had x-rays, used crutches, prayer, begging prayers, deal making prayers, I sleep in a Strassburg sock every night, I wear a sleeve made by Feetures every single day (I have more than one), shoe inserts, essential oils, salt therapy, water jet therapy, went to see a (new to me) Energy Healer, she did a vibration therapy and a laser therapy on my heel, healing meditations, energy meditations, chakra clearing, legal drugs, lots of alcohol, foot & leg massage, ice water bottles, wooden rollers, plastic spiny ball, ice wraps, heat wraps, salonpas, tape, positive thoughts.....I am sure I am missing a few things but it is enough to say I am not really able to fix this.

That is kind of hard to accept.

God reminded me today of all of the above that I have done and that I can keep on but really I am not in charge.  He didn't tell me I should stop the foolishness already, He simply reminded me the He is in charge.  Funny thing happened once I acknowledged that....I started walking without feeling every single step in my heel.  I am not ready to run yet but I will get there and I just need to relax into it. The timing will be perfect, so I just need to accept it and roll with it....I am so NOT in charge.